
When I woke up this morning, about 2 hours late, I was exhausted. I had this sad, drained feeling I’ve had the morning after a loved one has passed away. Yes, Michael was a loved one. Yesterday, when I heard that Michael Jackson had died, I went through a series of emotions and even became teary eyed. I was in the library and a black woman walked up to take her place on line. She was crying and frantically dialing her cell phone. We made eye contact and she blurted out “Michael Jackson just died!”
I called my mother right away and asked her to tell me it wasn’t so. I asked her to tell me that Michael Jackson is not dead. I called my Mom in Florida for two reasons. One reason is because my parents are retired and keep the television locked on all of the cable news channels all day. Second, because that’s who I call when something important happens to me. At the time, I couldn’t really identify what I was feeling or why I was so affected. The feelings were familiar though.
Michael Jackson was like that brother or cousin, that did time, or lived an ‘alternative’ lifestyle, or turned his back on the family but when they die, hey- they are still family. So the family buries them with dignity, some folks whisper about the bid he did or the time he was arrested or the allegations of jack-assery, and move on. But you love them anyway, because they are family. Michael was part of the Black family. He was an extraordinary artist and it is because of that people all over the world loved him but Black people love him and claim him as our own even though at times he did not claim us.
I have to admit that I haven’t been an ‘active’ fan of his persona for many years. The media reports of his personal life really depicted the life of a tortured soul. I always remained a fan of his music and tried to remember him with his jheri curl, dark skin and wide nose that he seemed to hate, but we all loved so much. The scary looking face that had become his, to me was not the real Michael Jackson.
As I go through my day, I am hoping that the folks that I work with that feel entitled to vocally criticize President Obama in the office don’t feel equally as entitled to vocally disrespect Michael Jackson’s memory the day after his death. I’m fully aware of the allegations of bad acts on his part, but like our other cousin OJ Simpson and his deceased ex wife, I’m also aware that he was never convicted of a crime.
Prior to her death she released a documentary memorializing her struggle with cancer and her fight for her life. The film showed her at her weakest and most unattractive state. What was remarkable about the documentary is that she wanted to bring attention to the type of cancer that she had-
What folks need to know is that the risk factors for anal cancer include having human papillomavirus (HPV), having many sexual partners, and having receptive anal intercourse (anal sex). You have to admire a person that would say to the world “I have anal cancer”.
So the world is less two significant souls today. I hope their souls rest in peace because they have earned it.
So the world is less two significant souls today. I hope their souls rest in peace because they have earned it.

3 comments:
ATWG: Thanks for your thoughtful bolg today. I did a commentary on the two deaths on my blog yesterday also. thatteowonna.blogspot.com. Thanks for giving me a different perspective!
Its interesting, we have the same view on Michael. I too had the jacket with the buttons going down each side as well as a wall full of Michael Jackson (and DeBarge) photos. I even went so far as to type out some of my favorite song lyrics (Ben in particular) and tape them to the wall as well. Even as a 40 something year old adult, I found no humor in the 'Michael Jackson is crazy" jokes or skits on TV. The enjoyments that was received from his music and performances far outweighted public perception of someone that they did not know intimately.
And Farrah? Charlies Angels was my SHOW! I wanted to be an Angel when i was old enough. I wanted to be Sabrina cause she was the cool tomboy chick.
Its odd, things of our childhood are slowly beginning to fade away but in my mind, these things were just a few years ago instead of 30+ years.
Jill, your blog was a pleasure to read and I look forward reading more. Keep up the good work!
Jill I don't know where I've been, I didn't know or remember you had a blog. I needed this one today.
I was in New York the weekend following Michael Jackson's passing. The radio station I was tuned into for the weekend played tribute to him all weekend long and I still couldn't get enough. I had forgotten about many of the songs that no longer get play on the radio. I also had the TV on watching videos, saw the BAD video in its' entirety. But I was cool. What kept me cool was having the mindset that Michael probably wanted to go this way (Unexpectedly, still young, with his looks (in his opinion maybe). I felt that he wanted to rival or surpass Elvis' fame (even in death).
Today, I was on a mission. Since the radio has understandably slacked on playing the songs, I wanted to have my own catalog of Jackson 5/Michael Jackson songs so I can play them as much as I want. I guess I needed to feel his presence (even though I never met him) in some way. I think some of those feelings were fostered by my guilt in my role throughout the years of not supporting him and being angry with him for turning his back on "us". I was hurt/angry after that interview that backfired on him in 2003 i think it was. I was ashamed to be a Michael Jackson fan. Not even because I think he did or didn't do something wrong to those kids, but because he let it happen AGAIN! It being, opening himself, his home to strangers, leeches, scammers. He let those white/non black people that he loved so much stick it to him again. Fist time shame on them, after that, it was shame on Michael.
Sometime after downloading the songs, my son and I were engage in a conversation where he made several admissions. He download many songs (albums actually) and had shed a few tears for Michael. He was a little freaked about that because he rarely shows any emotion and definitely doesn't admit to it. I began getting teary-eyed and after he left the room, the tears flowed. I have NEVER cried for a celebrity. I cried. I cried for Michael Jackson, THE KING OF POP. RIP.
Thank you for your blog and being so insightful to mention Farrah Fawcett and her courageous battle with anal cancer as well. RIP Farrah.
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